to be redeemed.

http://imboycrazy.com/

i check this all the time.

its amazing.

survey.

Age: 20
Height: 5’7”
Weight:153 lbs
BMI: 24

Dress Size: 10
Highest Weight: 165lbs
Lowest Weight: 145 lbs
Goal Weight:125 lbs

Favorite Diet Food: green tea

Favorite Binge Food: chocolate

Favorite Exercise: kempo.

Favorite Thinspo: alexa chung.

Where Do You Slip Up: when i’m around family.

When Did It Start: no idea

Does Anyone Know: no.

Do You Want Help: no.

How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day: on a good day 600 or so.

What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror: ugh.

Are You In A Relationship: no.

Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends: fat.

Are You Depressed: sometimes.

Ever Tried To Commit Suicide: yes.

Ever Been To A Psychologist: yes.

I AM -
[] anorexic
[] ednos
[] bulimic
[] living off diet pills
[] hungry
[] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[] Under 100lbs
[] starving yourself
[x] participating in a fast

PEOPLE -
[] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[] call me fat
[] say I’m skinny
[] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[] spread rumors about me
[] force me to eat
[] say I eat too much
[] wish I’d eat more
[x] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic/ednos

I WISH -
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
[] I could stop being ana/mia

I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[] shaking
[] being weak
[x] losing weight
[] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

APPEARANCE
[] I am shorter than 5’4.
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
[] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

FAMILY
[x] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[] I’ve run away from home.
[] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I’ve had children.
[ ] I’ve lost a child.

EMBARRASSMENT
[] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I’ve peed from laughing.
[x] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[] I’ve glued my hand to something
[] I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[] I’ve had my trousers rip in public.

RELATIONSHIPS
[x] I’m single
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I’ve cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[ ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[x ] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.

SEXUALITY
[x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I’ve had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I’ve been kissed in the rain.
[x] I’ve hugged a stranger.
[x ] I have kissed a stranger.

HONESTY
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[x] I’ve cheated on a test.
[ ] I’ve been suspended from school.

BAD TIMES
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can’t swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I’m upset.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[ ] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I’m addicted to self harm.
[ ] I’ve woken up crying
[x] I’ve lost weight
[x] I’ve gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[x] Weight consumes me.
[ ] I’m at my thinnest
[ ] I’m at my biggest
[x] I’ve lost weight and kept it off
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[ x] I weigh myself daily
[x ] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[ ] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[x] I feel happy when I’m hungry
[ x] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I’ve skipped a meal
[x] I’ve thrown food away
[x] I’ve spit food out
[x] I’ve fasted
[] I’ve taken diet pills
[ ] I’ve used laxatives
[x] I’ve purged
[x ] I exercise
[ ] I exercise so I can eat
[ ] I work out secretly
[ ] I work out daily
[ ] I exercise to counteract eating
[ ] I’ve fainted from exhaustion

I’ve done:
[x] Weed
[x] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol
[] Diet pills
[] Pain killers
[ ] Anti-depressants
[] Ecstasy
[ ] LSD
[ ] Mushrooms
[ ] Speed
[] Cocaine
[] Other
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I have a ED blog
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I collect thinspo
[x] I condone pro-ana/mia sites
[x] I count calories
[ ] I’ve had negative intake days
[x] I avoid food
[x] I hate food
[ ] I love food
[x] I want to be this way
[ ] I don’t want to be like this
[x] I wish I could have more control
[x] Being thin is my top priority
[x] I don’t want to get better
[ ] I am in treatment
[x] I’m doing this for me
[ ] I’m doing this for someone
[x] I’m doing this to prove myself.

i’m not sure what this is going to be…

but let’s see where it goes.